OK, so let me give you the summary of my school life: I have been home schooled for the past 4 or so years. I am 16, and I am supposed to have graduated last spring... -_- Sadly, that did not happen yet, because I have been putting off doing my schoolwork. I am almost done with tests and quizzes, I have written all the necessary papers, and I have yet to send everything off to the Great Grading Desk in the Sky (actually, just to Pensacola, Florida, because that's where my accredited homeschooling work goes).
I, as I said before, am 16, and I am going to college soon. And, here arises a ton of problems. I will not be able to drive myself back and forth from school, and I will not be able to get a job to pay for my schooling because I will not be able to drive back and forth to that job.
"What?" You say, "Can't your parents--" And I must stop you there, because, probably no matter what you would have said, the answer would have been "No." My parents would not be able to drive me back and forth, and neither would they be able to pay for my schooling, because my mom is still in school, and they do not make enough money anyway. I suppose I could sign up for financial aid, and I could get a job somewhere close so that I wouldn't have to catch a ride, and I could eventually pay for both my learner's driving permit and then license, but that will take a while, and I don't have much time... That is what it feels like, anyway. With my crazy love life, the drama that thusly ensues, and then the problem of my schooling, I do not want to just sit here and blog about it forever; I want to DO something with my life... but, sadly, as I am 16, and completely dependent upon my under-achiever parents, I can not seem to get anything done and settled. Yes, yes, you want to hear more about my love life, but that is for another post. This one is me focusing on my school life.
I need a lot in my life, but I also need a good set of social skills, and then I need to grow up. I know more than anyone that I have a lot of growing up to do before I can trust myself with the responsibility of school, and then with the responsibility of a love, then possibly more than that love (as in, family; as in, MY family; and then as in, NOT my parents, but me BEING the parent). I can not handle that responsibility yet. I know I can not, and I do not want to have to before I know how to do it well, and like an adult.
Side comment: Haters, and those otherwise interested: I do not, as a matter of fact, think I sound like a person with profound, epic problems; I know that I sound immature at times, and I know that I need to work on my immaturity.
I have too much on my plate right now, and I need help with it, but I need to be the one to get help; I just don't know who I can trust. In any case, this blog, and my posting on it have simply helped me procrastinate, and escape from the real world for a few minutes. Thank you, creaters of blogger.com.
