I hate this "Titles" Section...

There's just so much I want to write about that a super tiny heading JUST won't make up for!!
Anyway, past the random comment, I've been thinking about random things and wondering why I find myself able to laugh at life one second, then look at it from a very philosophical perspective the next... I think it's because, for the amount of trouble I've been through and for the amount of things I've had happen to me whether good or bad, I've been able to see the humour in it simply because of God.  He made me this way through different circumstances, and I can't help but laugh hysterically (no, I don't actually ever laugh very hysterically, I was never very comfortable with myself until recently) at something I, say, see on TV, then wondering how truthful and pertinent it is to my life in the very next moment.  I wonder if it's because I am so different.  I am just 1 in over 7 billion humans on planet earth at any given moment. 
Could I be that different from the rest of them? 
Or is it just that I'm me, so I see myself differently from the way some random other person might see me?  Whatever the case may be, I've been through some stuff, and I've experienced enough to know that life isn't all unicorns and rainbows... and chocolate & cotton candy... wow, I totally want some chocolate right now... 
Anyway, the point I'm trying to make is that I'm not a very serious person.  I look like I am on the outside to people that I meet every day, but I'm not a completely humorless person... I can see how things can be taken lightly, and I can see how things might matter much more.  Of course, it could be argued that I personally don't have THAT much experience, that I'm learned but not experienced, that I have book sense, not street sense, etc. 
But with all I've seen, and all that I've only heard or read about, I can find the humour and the seriousness of almost any given moment.  And I'm glad that I can, because I don't want to be the kind of person that is very willful.  Not that I want to be spineless, I just think it's completely unnecessary to never question if you are wrong or not... I find myself almost doing that too much, in fact... I have set beliefs, mind you, but there are some things that require a million different ways of thinking...
Like what you might do with your life. You don't just pick a career and "Oh, too bad," if you stink at it; you need to put actual human thought into where your money goes. 
Because, if you find that you wasted time, money, and effort on something that doesn't even matter anymore, you're going to have real trouble in the world, unless you have some really good, and also really rich friends... lol
That would be awesome to never have to worry about your life anymore, knowing someone's got your back who would run your life the way you would... or better.... and fund all your deeds, and in (of course) the most completely impossible of cases, your misdeeds.  I hope I don't sound preachy, because that's one of the last things I would want, but some things just need sayin', brah...

Troubles

      I love everything. I love my family, I love my friends, I love my spiritual family, my church, I love my past experiences for they have made me who I am, and I love who I am. No, don't worry, this isn't a suicide note. I would be too scared to kill myself, even if I wanted to, which I don't. I have much to look forward to. I want the whole picket-fenced picture. Maybe 4 kids, 2 boys and 2 girls, so they each have someone to play with. I want my kids to play with my best friend's kids and grow up with them. I want a loving husband, a soulmate, who respects me for who I am, but also loves me and wants to protect me from any harm. I also want a husband who is loveable; who has his quirks, and yes, is very self-confident, but can take a suggestion. I don't want to have a mean family that argues all the time, I don't want a cheating husband or a bratload of selfish, disrespecting, disobedient children. I know also that there is no such thing as a perfect family, but that doesn't stop me from wanting a good one. I want a well-paying job, co-workers that I enjoy being stuck at a job with, and I want to be a just person. I want to be disciplinary, but not abusive; loving, but not spoiling; a mother, but not an overbearer. I want to be in perfect sync with my husband, and enjoy life with him on a spiritual level, not just physical.

       But, with all these loves, I also hate everthing. I hate that my family is sometimes abrasive, ignorant, and uncaring, that I almost never see my friends, and that I only have a social life in my church, with my spiritual family. Even though I met a guy there who's 5 years older than me, and may or may not like me in a way that could become permanent, and probably doesn't know that I'm 5 years his junior, which is also something to hate. I hate my past experiences, for they make me look like a silly, blundering child. I hate who I am because I'm not a perfect, self-confident person growing in to a friendly, self- and others-aware woman. I wouldn't kill myself still, though, for I want to see how this picture of my life turns out. Will it end in utter misery and will I be happy to leave? Will I be happy to go, but still enjoy my life? Will I fight to the very end to stay in this world? I also want to see certain desires fulfilled. I want the picket-fence life, the honoring, adoring kids, the almost-but-definitely-not worshiping husband. I would hate that life, though, because it would probably be monotonous. I would hate a job that I'm stuck at, I would hate the bad things that happen in my family, I would hate that perfection is indeed unattainable in this life, and I would hate people stupid enough to think that they are perfect, to think that there are people who can be perfect, or that "perfect" is something completely different from what it actually is. I would hate the responsibilty of looking after a household, I would hate having to discipline my children when they do something wrong, and I would hate having to be constantly in everyone's lives. I think I might also hate sometimes that I believe marriage is permanent, and I might want just to leave and restart my life in a completely different way.

      But with all these loves and hates cancelling each other out, I have but one reason to live: to worship and glorify Christ. He put me here for a reason, As he has put everyone here for a reason, even the stubbornly unsaved. I feel so much that I cannot put into words, because there are no words in any language to sum up what I'm feeling. I love, I hate, I lust, I abhor, I am disgusted by, I cause disgust, I am in awe of, I cause awe in others. I want my life to be perfect, but I want it to be useful to GOD. I want my life to be a perfect, useful life for GOD.
      And God does everything (or allows something to happen) for a reason, so if my posts here seem opinionated, they're like that for a reason... He is in the ultimate control, so don't think that I have no affect on people, or that I should stop doing what I'm doing, because He made me like this, so I'm like this for a reason...

AAAAAAAAAADVENTURE TIME!!!!

Ok, so, I've decided that I'm going to write whenever possible, and to heck with whatever people think of my opinion... lol
Of course, except when I'm wrong.  I'd like some feedback...
So, since nobody reads this blog anyway, I'm going to make one post worshipping* my favorite show, Adventure Time on Cartoon Network, new episodes 7:30 P.M. on Mondays. Woohoo!!
Shmowzow!!!!!! I love** this show!! It's pretty algebraic... lol
Especially their really lumpy catch phrases and stuff.
Yup, I totally said that they were lumpy... They're also pretty righteous...
Ok, I know I'm not the best person on the planet (I'd LOVE to meet the best person on the planet, btw), but I love this show and think it's awesome!!
Oh, and if I'm wrong, you can send me feedback!! I love mail, especially hate mail!! ^_^
My e-mail is: doesitreallymatter15@gmail.com
Use it, don't abuse it!!! Cuz otherwise, I'm going to make it matter!!!
And don't just send me a random e-mail saying: "I hate this show, so shutup!!"
Send me 3 good reasons (at least) and you might see your opinion posted here (yes, you'll get all due credit for your opinions!).
Oh, and if you want me to talk about something, send me an e-mail about it (the at least three reasons rule again applied), and I'll formulate my own opinions and make a post! ^_^
So, those are my rules so far for posting... of course, if I'm going to write something, I don't need three reasons, it's MY blog, after all. lol
Oh, and rules are meant to be broken, but ONLY by the person that made them, so don't be all hatey about why I haven't posted what you sent... especially if you've broken my ONE cardinal rule of posting... >:(








* Of course by "worship," I mean simply to mention it once or twice... lol
** And of course by "love," I mean really really like...