Dedication

  I had a few epiphanies this week. I realized that I am not ready for a lot of things that I want in life, and I have to let God take full control.  I never really spoke about God in my life, and I want to do it so much more now. 
  I found God.  I did not discover Him for the first time; I simply realized Him.  I do not want to sound smart, or like I am blind to the fact that I am wrong sometimes, which I am not, but I think that people are selfish.  All people.  All people share the same mistake: we are completely and utterly human.  It is in our nature to commit wrong-doings, to be selfish, vulgar, and a ton other nasty things, but I am trying to overcome that; however, I realized that I can only do that with God's help. 
When I was young, I surrendered my life to God in a few different ways.  I was saved, the first step that is taken in a Christian walk, and then I surrendered my career to Him.  I gave my life and future to Him, promising to become a missionary.  I am not rich, and I can not do alot of things on my own right now, so I am just going to wait until the Lord provides for me. 
  I am also going to use what He has given me so that I can minister even when I can not be somewhere in person: I am going to use my blog to glorify Him.  Since the beginning, I have been vain, trying to use my blog to make myself look good, but I do not want to lie.  I want to show myself as me, and if you do not like me, you are going to have to walk away because I will not turn my thoughts from God; not again.  I know that what I have been doing is wrong, and I do not want to try to glorify myself, because I do not want to look selfish; even not wanting to look bad can sometimes be considered selfish, however.  So I am just going to be what God wants me to be and that will have to be that.
  I have been stumbling about in the darkness and trying to grab hold of anything that would help me in life.  I now realize that I should have simply let God take control, but I was self-conscious, and and I didn't want to do anything to draw attention to myself because I didn't want to look bad.  I need to get over my self-consciousness; I need to help people rather than myself.  So from now on, this blog is dedicated to Christ and His Purpose. 

  Wow! It feels good to do that officially!